PART 4 Growing up in your 30's

At 39 years of age this month, I celebrate my last 12 months of being in my "30's"......
Its bizarre to me to think how fast the past 6 years have gone and what I've experienced.
Today I'm feeling somewhat reflective and despite this intense undercurrent, that pops up from time to time to remind me that I'm not getting younger and running out of time, there is also a feeling of relief. Relief that I no longer have to be the naive child, although I still have much to learn, I'm feeling more the, "old wise one" and this new feeling, is giving me comfort.

I'm feeling more naked than ever before, more vulnerable and certainly less together, however its different. I feel more at peace about it, playful even, an acceptance of humanness and its flaws.  The feeling that its ok to be imperfect or an unfinished piece of art...  Its funny how art imitates life and this is evident in my life now more than ever.  I used to get quite impatient and panicked at the thought of showing my unfinished art or my unclean house or embarrassed about my imperfections, its like I'm becoming more ok with the process.  I'm allowing myself to be in the process and also be of the process.  This is a new place for me.

Ok so begins, the new chapter of my life, once more.  I feel like my role is changing, I am being urged, guided if you like, to create something lasting, something I can leave behind for others to stumble upon and perhaps even assist them on their journey.  So begs the question "how"? I believe I am an impatient, procrastinator, who tends to busy herself with menial tasks to distract myself from what I really want to do, because I don't know how..... the truth is, do we ever know how? I don't think we ever really know how, we learn on the job always and here I am once again, learning on the job.

I am now a Trainer and run courses in Personal Development, focusing on assisting people to recognise their talents and restoring faith in their ability to live from the heart.  I believe this is the future for human beings on the planet earth and if we are not living this way, I fear we will eventually find ourselves becoming robotic sufferers of a diseased world.

My passion in life is to create.  I will always create.  My values are to continuously, grow, learn, contribute and have financial freedom.  Freedom to be able to create and share love with my fellow man and this amazing planet of diversity and adventure.
One of all time favourite authors is Paulo Coelho and I hope to somehow be brave enough to create sacred journey's for clients to explore themselves through immersing themselves in to life in a new way.  Similar to how Paulo shares the experiential journey, I hope to be able to do the same with groups.

I will share with you my thoughts around Creation v's Depression and I hope to inspire you to come along with me sometime to share in adventure, freedom and growth.